A visit from the past

It's 5.47pm and I just finished my lunch.. in peace and quiet.. finally.

Came down from the wards at almost 4pm to my already cold packed noodles. The phone rang just a few bites into it and was told that there were 'people' who wanted to see me urgently. Thinking that they must be patients with problems or queries, I directed them to come over to my office so that I can settle whatever the problem was quickly and continue eating. Boy... how wrong I was!

The 'people' turned out to be a few strangers who needed personal help from me. Not patients, not drug reps and not even doctors or nurses... They were total strangers.. and the only thing that bound us together this afternoon was my past. My painful past that I'd rather forget...

It was unbelievable.. overwhelming in fact. But they were nice people and in desperation of help. This meeting was fated.. so if my painful past can actually make somebody else happy or in this case, even safe a soul...let it be...

A new decade

I turned 30 yesterday… Yup, the big THREE-ZERO. I was never age-conscious before but this year is a lil’ bit different. I’m not that bothered with the actual physical aging process (ok, maybe just a little bit!) but it’s the prospect of entering a new decade of my life that scares the sh*t of me. What will the next 10 years of my life be like? Happier? Healthier? Wealthier even?

Years ago, I actually set up a certain goals that I should have achieved by the time I’m 30 but looking back now, I realised that those goals are simply unrealistic. I may have achieved some of the targets, but the rest are now out of the window…

‘Kita hanya merancang tapi tuhan yang menentukan…’ Yup, we can only make plans.

‘Go ahead and cry now, just give in to the madness
The only way to feel your joy, is first to feel the sadness
Go ahead and sail now, just give in to the ocean
The only way to tame your fear, is to feel her rockin’ motion..’
-Vonda Shepard’s ‘100 tears away’-

Just wonder if the eternal happiness I’ve been seeking will finally be found in this new decade….

P/s Emm.. should I start shopping for those overly-priced anti-aging creams now? :)

2006: In with a bang...literally!

I woke up with a stiff neck and ringing ears this morning..

It's been awhile since I last saw fireworks display at a close range so excuse me for being a bit excited about it. I was in Damansara for the new year countdown last night and I'm glad that I went eventhough I wasn't that keen at first. The thoughts of getting stuck in the traffic and in between stinky revellers (in that manner) put me off of joining the celebration until a 'gentle' persuasion from a certain quarters finally made me change my mind.

Anyway, while straining my neck looking up the sky for maximum pleasure of the magnificent colours and loud bangs, my mind went on an automated flashback of all the events that had happened in 2005. At the end of that 8 minutes or so, I successfully concluded that 2005 itself was a colourful year with many highs and lows, tears and laughters and most importantly, love and happiness lost and refound. So, for this new year, there won't be any new year resolutions (since it is very likely that I won't stick to it anyway!). I just want to be thankful that I am now a better ( I think!), stronger and happier person. I am also thankful that I'm blessed with loving and caring family and friends as well as good health and a stable career. Can't be asking for more, can I?

Happy new year everyone!

I forgot to bring my camera last night so I had to copy this photo from NST online just to show how beautiful our new year firework displays were! ;)

A sweet gesture

Have you ever received flowers or gifts on just a regular day?

Those received on your birthdays or anniversaries don't count.. not even during christmas, Valentine's day or New year. What I mean is just on a normal, nothing-special-to-celebrate day...have you?

Well, I did a few days ago.. Someone thoughtful gave me a bunch of red roses out of the blue on an insignificant rainy-and-gloomy-as-usual-working-day. Believe me, that really made my day that I smiled all day.. even in my sleep! Suddenly, all my stress and worry of unfinished assignments and overloaded work just disappeared into thin air.. just by looking at the roses! It just show how small yet sweet gestures like that can totally change someone's day and mood. So dear friends, cheer up your loved ones and give them something special on the days when they're least expecting it. I'm pretty sure their days will be instantly brightened up and they'll love you even more!