A Reflection

When somebody you know or close to you passed away out of the blue, you tend to pause for awhile and reflect or analyse your own life. I do anyway..

I have been thinking about my own life the past few days. Am I ready if my life is cut-short out of a sudden? In religious sense, definitely not (I'm just being honest!). Others in general? Well, maybe.. although I have so many other things to achieve still in life, I am pretty much happier with what I have nowadays compared to perhaps, a couple of years ago. I am blessed with so many good friends who sincerely care about me ( I think so anyway!), a job that I still enjoy (as long as I dont think about the pay that is!)and I've been given so many opportunities to learn and do new and interesting things each day.. Yup, life is not bad at all..

Surely, like any other 'normal' girls I do hope that someday, I'll be (re)married and blessed with kids.. But I have admit, at this moment of time, I'm not bothered much about this. If love comes naturally tomorrow, I wont reject but I know I wont be actively pursuing for it either.. Past experiences have taught me many things and one thing for sure is never let myself be in a vulnerable position again. Nope, I wont ever let anybody else hurt me as how I was hurt before.. never again. A friend recently commented that I have built an invisible shield around me. She said I need to put efforts and take the risks of getting hurt again in order to find true love. Heck, it's not a price I'm wiling to pay!

Honestly, I dont ask for much in a life-partner.. only integrity, sense of responsibility, honesty and of course he has to love me for who I really am.. But these men are truly scarce nowadays, would you agree? Do they even exist in the first place? Only time will tell...

Anyway, it's friday today (the most auspicious day of the week in Islam) so let's put our hands together and pray for all who have left us, be it our family and friends (Arwah Nenek, Arwah Atuk Muar, Arwah Noni 93, Arwah Anor 93 & Arwah Johan Ismail) or those who have touched our lives in some ways or another (Arwah Hani Mohsin and all those died in Palestine, Lebanon and Afghanistan).. Al-fatihah.

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I've just realised that this blog is already 3 years old. How time flies..
Nothing much have changed since it first started.. for the reasons that my web knowledge isn't that great and that the person who first taught me on how to set this blog up, well, isn't around anymore.. So, don't expect any facelifts ok! :)

MMMP emcee passed away

In The Star Online today:

Tuesday July 25, 2006

Actor Hani Mohsin dies

KUALA LUMPUR: Actor Hani Mohsin Hanafi, 43, collapsed and died at the low-cost carrier terminal in Sepang at 9.30am while waiting to board a flight to Alor Setar on Tuesday.

Mohsin was traveling with his nine-year-old daughter Hani Karmila -- from his previous marriage to Datin Seri Tiara Jacquelina -- when he complained of chest pains before collapsing.

Hani Karmila immediately called her mother, who rushed to the airport with husband Datuk Seri Effendi Norwawi.

Mohsin's remains have been brought to hospital for an autopsy.

Mohsin was the host of popular TV game show Roda Impian before his death.

I have therefore removed the photo I took with him from the previous post on MMMP. May Allah bless his soul. Al-fatihah.

Highs and Lows

The last 2 months have been, well, particularly colourful for me. From numerous late-nights due to the world cup (and England broke my heart again..) to a big reunion in JB, a break-up, more reunions (of several kinds), lots of travels and the latest, a disastrous blind-date! Thankfully, the blind date wasn't mine.. I only helped to set-up but as an amateur in this sticky-business, it didnt turn out that well. Sorry mate! :)

I was here at one weekend


Sheraton Perdana Langkawi









to JB the next weekend to set up these













note:the kebaya top is the original STF formal dinner dresscode back in 1958!













and had to participate in this too


car parade accompanying Sultanah Johor from Istana to STF







Although it was hectic, I had fun meeting up with them


my batchmates who came - photo by Rizza









and them


these girls never failed to fill the room up with laughters!








2 days later, I jetted off to Bangkok for a conference. In between the hectic schedules we still managed to pave our ways to the bustling chatuchak market and the 'happening' Phatpong, fine dining at Baiyoke tower and of course the usual tourist spots like the grand palace and marble temple.


Took this at the grand palace... beautiful isnt it?


More photos of my Bangkok trip can be found here.



The lows?

To start with, my write-up is wayyyyy behind schedule. Secondly, I broke somebody's heart.. He's one fine guy and I know he loves me deeply but I hardly have time for myself these days, what's more for a relatioship. I do care for him but I dont think I can give what he wants.. Maybe I'm not capable of loving as much anymore, I don't know. But I sincerely hope that he'll meet somebody soon who can love and give what he truly deserves.. Anyway, we're still in touch so, we'll see... ada jodoh tak ke mana kan? For now, back to my write-up!

p/s Congratulations to X-Cempaka @ USJ1 guys for winning yesterday's friendly in a very stylish manner although playing with only 7 people compared to the opponent who had double in number of players!

I've been googled!

It's been a longggg while since I last opened my blogger page.. No more excuses now, I was just lazy!

It's sunday morning and I'm already in the office doing my last-minute review write-up (when will I ever learn to do work early eh?).I was busy googling for some extra info for my write-up when I accidentally came across a page with my name in it. Out of curiosity, I googled myself (yup,it's abit sad isnt it?)and found a few more pages with references to me..some are already known of like on the hospital's websites, mine and friends' blogs,PPS, webshots,universities and societies pages but some are unexpected like in here and here.

The first one was a guess page of a hostel in Rome. I remember us writing that comment in their guessbook while we were there in 2000 or 2001 so I guess the hostel people must have uploaded it up onto their webpage. The second.. hehe.. I was listed in the top 10 pharmacists for reporting adverse drug reactions to MADRAC in 2004!

My name also appeared in 2 blogs which I didnt know..here (see post on May 10th) and here. The first blog was by one of IMU pharmacy students who came for attachment at my hospital early this year.. It was very nice of him to refer me as 'the experienced one' since I'm quite sure many others will refer me as 'the garang one' :) Just for the record, the guys couldn't find me for the photo sessions because I was BUSY, not because I was skiving or something!